Sigh....

I'm fed up being invisible, it being like i don't exist. I mean yeah the bitch has treated me like this for years but it really got to me today, and i just don't no why?
I mean it shouldn't its been going on that long, but it just seemed to dawn on me how bad things were, it was honestly like i wasn't there!!  I didn't relies things had gotten this bad and out of control.
I mean there are rules for example - see if you have no intention of inviting people to an event then you don't make the plans in front of them!! Simple as!
Just gets worse when the folk you though were ok seem to have joined in I mean i know one of them was two faced and one to watch but i never saw her treating me that way.
They are just all due to go fuck each other, bunch of jealous stuck up cows, cos that's what everyone thinks of them, no body thinks they are cool or grown up so they just need to deal with that and stop trying to be something they're not!

cols feet?.....

Its sooooo cold outside now, the gloves and scarf are out and its time to wrap up warm :)

Today was a bad day to wear heels at work had to walk to the bus station, to the office then go a nice long walk round the city centre finding folk to talk too, then walk to the bus.
My poor feet :(

So far this week 2 stangers have sat beside me on the bus, now there are rules against these things, if there are two empty seats beside each other then you sit there NOT BESIDE A STRANGER.

Also i think I'm one of those annoying people that folk dont like that has there music to loud so others can hear it. Opps well all i have to say to that is DONT SIT CLOSE TO ME!!!!

People....

Was up far to early today, but surprisingly I'm not that tired. Its just starting to catch up on me now.
Got the bus up with a friend this morning, helped him with his collage projects since I'm so nice.
Even got walked right to the door.
Now I must confess I love the Irish accent and since the boss man at the paper is Irish, its heaven. Couldn't help but laugh when he decided to change a light though and got down of the chair and put his foot straight in the bin.
Looking forward to the rest of the week.
My mate even got the bus home with me, which was really nice of him. Had a good laugh even made friends with some of his mates who said they "liked my fringe" which was a tad random i must admit.
Only problem is my boyfriend doesn't like this mate, and well me and him are close and have a laugh in the kind of way that can come across as flirty and at times certain lines may be crossed, although nothing has EVER happened and nothing will.

My last day of freedom for two whole weeks.
Five days of getting a bus at nine in the morning, doing work experience and not getting home till close to seven that night.
Two days, my precious weekend, spent working.
Then another five days back at school.
Saturday I have my freedom back, just for a day.

So how i plan to spend this day of freedom?
Writing an essay, studying business, maybe going to to do some photography, and going to my friends to fix a Halloween costume.

Sounds thrilling doesn't it?

So i apologize now if you don't here from me for a bit, I promise my week working will be posted on this - http://harebell-couldthisbeit.blogspot.com/ - at some point.

I will try and put any good gossip or stories on here, if I'm awake enough to do so.

So i hope you all enjoy your week, and shall try and blog again soon.

=) xxxx

just a short one....

I get to see my boy tonight, i get to hug him and kiss him cos i no longer have a stupid throat infection :)
On the other hand the bitches are back! They had spent the week at some outdoor, camping, award thing. Not exactly their thing, no make up, no designer clothes, outside in the cold, rain and mud. One of them even fell face first into a bog. I wont lie the rest of the group laughed A LOT at that news. It’s mean, but funny, very, very funny. I like to think of it as karma for her being such a cow.
But we are just imagining all the brilliant lies they are going to tray and spin us. They were propositioned by the most gorgeous guys or something, which even without us being there is an obvious lie. So it should be interesting next time I’m around them. Which thank god, is going to be quite a while. Or maybe Saturday but either way shall be amusing. Could always start singing Disney songs again hehe.
Anyway, still catching up with missed work from school, so I shall return to doing that.

=) xxxx

Happy day....

Man its hard to title these things.
Anyway, nothing quite makes your day like that unexpected "love you" wither to your face or on a text, when your not expecting it well it just puts a smile on your face, and keeps it there for a long long time.
Had a fab night with the girls yesterday, singing Disney songs and dancing around a kitchen.......as you do of a monday night lol. But these kind of nights are the ones you remember and love. Being mounted by your mates, taking unattractive pictures, dramatically singing amazing songs, bitching, laughing, having proper fun.
shame the bitches are back next week to spoil all our fun because they don't appreciate nights like that, cos they are to snobby and mature for that, haha mature - don't make me laugh.
Had to convince one of my mates its about time she grows a pair and asks out the guy she likes, i mean the worse thing that can happen is he says no and she isn't left wondering what if?
I wouldn't have my boy if i hadn't just went for it, I wouldn't have had the most amazing year ever, admittedly we have our ups and downs but for all those who doubted us, we love each other and have made it a year.....so in your face!!

=) xxxx

Being female....

I dont care that guys read this. But I had a very sucessful shopping day yesterday as for like the first time ever i found bras that really fit!! And I mean this is as close to perfect as it gets. And that plus my new dress to quote "make my chest look gooooood" ;)
hehe anyway was out for dinner with my boy last night hen to a wee party, met som friends i havnt seen in ages so was a great laugh, walked how with my boy wich is difficult in a dress and heels when its really windy. But I had nice knickers so all was good. Haha god the way my mind works.
You know what i hate?
When your parents treat you like an idiot. If they are ill your n ot allowed to have any promblems are feel like crap yourself because they dont care. Or you cant do something and need their help and immediatly yor incabale of it cos your stupid!! I men they come through to help and jus makes thingsworse and i'm like Ha who is the idiot now!!
Awww the rage!!
And yes me and my darling boyfriend managed not to fall out last night. I mean its mpossible to stay mad at him. And even harder when he says I love you.

=) xxxx

Love.....

When he is sleepy and moody and stuborn.
When I'm ill and emotional and fed up.
Its bound to lead to a fall out, but just hang up he phone have a we cry and then deal with it.
Threaten not to see him for another week and BAM!! total attitude change, guessi t just shows he cares, in his own strange way.

Me....

Its time to sell myself!

Personal Statements, and updated C.Vs for work experience.

Fun times talking yourself up, making yourself sound, big and important, and special.

Even though you still feel like crap and just want to go back to bed.

But where to start. What to say to make myself stand out from everyone else?

I honestly hate doing things like this!!!

Perfect doubt anyone else would think of that for a start.


So i start my week of journalism work experience in a week or so. I feel the need for a separate blog to document that. But I'm working 10am till 5:30pm it will take roughly an hour on the bus and 15 mins to walk to and from the bus station to my house, and 5 mins to get to the office. That is a long day! So not sure if i will have the energy to blog. But i shall try.

I'm also working Saturday and Sunday of the week before, I think.


But i get to spend the week in Glasgow, and I love Glasgow, I love the city. And planning to go to dinner with my boy one night, the as the parents are away I'm going to my grans for dinner too one night.

So it is all planned out nicely.


:) xxxx

Diseased.....

I have been ill for a year now......

I have been in bed for a week stright.....

On Saturday I felt fine, which was great considering I got to see my boy for the first time in a week, and he was well worth seeing ;) haha

But no now I'm ill again, it is as if to celebrate the start of my year long mysetry illness i have been plaged by a illness.

But God was having an off day when he made me, I mean i cant even be sick properly, I just sit there and gag.

So I have not blogged in a week due to illness, and this week could end up much the same :( 

But I will not let it stop me! I think, I hope.

Hope you are all happy and healthy

xxxxx