Strange how you just get days where you feel really insucure, and you miss a certine someone like hell, and your worried about another someone, dont get me wrong you can a great day, its just those few ours at night where you thinking, he should be texing me, he used to be texting me, god i hope he is ok.
Life is strange that way don't you think?
Anyway i have a new blog..... and didnt want anyone missing me to badly haha.....like anyone would......
but anyway just incase ..... http://aprophecy.blog.co.uk/.......is where you want to head now
and well.....i hope to be more dedicated to this blog, but only time will tell.
=) xxxx
Tuesday, 12 April 2011
Monday, 14 February 2011
happy v-day.....
Valentine’s day number two with my boy. Valentine’s day number two not spent with him. Why?
Because I honestly do not see any point in today. Single or spoken for I just find it pointless.
I mean why should this one day be so special. If you love someone you should tell them every day! You should by them things whenever you want not just because the calendar says this the day for soppy presents that normally mean nothing to the person.
Then again I do love the card I’ve bought him it puts things forward in a straight and easily understandable way…… “shut up and kiss me” says it all in my world J
<3 xxx
Tuesday, 8 February 2011
grrr......
God some people!! Actually the point in them!
Was out on my driving lesson. 3rd lesson and everything was going well, was driving back home and the school people were coming out, and i start to slow down at some traffic lights where there is a crossing and who is standing there but the new bitch and her friends, so i keep focused, slowed down, stopped, ignored them. Until my driving instructor turns to me and says, "they are all laughing at you" so i look at him knowing one of them is his pupil, but that i have the upper hand as family friends and told him straight "its fine they don’t like me anyway".
He was totally right in his reply though "I thought you lot were too old not to like someone"
I just shrugged him off, still ignoring them. And pulled of calmly, and properly.
He was proud of me for not just speeding off, risking stalling, and embarrassing myself.
But honestly how immature!
Was out on my driving lesson. 3rd lesson and everything was going well, was driving back home and the school people were coming out, and i start to slow down at some traffic lights where there is a crossing and who is standing there but the new bitch and her friends, so i keep focused, slowed down, stopped, ignored them. Until my driving instructor turns to me and says, "they are all laughing at you" so i look at him knowing one of them is his pupil, but that i have the upper hand as family friends and told him straight "its fine they don’t like me anyway".
He was totally right in his reply though "I thought you lot were too old not to like someone"
I just shrugged him off, still ignoring them. And pulled of calmly, and properly.
He was proud of me for not just speeding off, risking stalling, and embarrassing myself.
But honestly how immature!
Friday, 4 February 2011
time....
Its strange how things change...
The folk that were the badies at the beging of this are becoming my friends. Those that were inbetween are my friends. Those on my side are now gone.
Complete role reversal.
Ok so things are perfect with the old "bitches" they never will be. But with just over 30 days left of school, 30 days left in the building, of seeing them. Things are good.
Funny how things happen.
How time makes things change.....
The folk that were the badies at the beging of this are becoming my friends. Those that were inbetween are my friends. Those on my side are now gone.
Complete role reversal.
Ok so things are perfect with the old "bitches" they never will be. But with just over 30 days left of school, 30 days left in the building, of seeing them. Things are good.
Funny how things happen.
How time makes things change.....
Friday, 28 January 2011
and so it goes...
I'm excited for my birthday, i'm not going to lie.
Dinner with my boy tomoz night, then driving on the big day, and lunch with the family and then more family round at night, then lunch with my real friends the day after.
Compleatly over that whole silly thing.
I refuse to let it get to me any more.....
Dinner with my boy tomoz night, then driving on the big day, and lunch with the family and then more family round at night, then lunch with my real friends the day after.
Compleatly over that whole silly thing.
I refuse to let it get to me any more.....
Sunday, 23 January 2011
I'm very good at not letting things get to me, or at least not showing that they do. But sometimes it just gets too much and you can't hold it all back anymore. Partly why i started writing because i was fed up holding it in and having it all explode out at once. But this time, i don’t know what it is but my anger disappeared )about the who stupid thing where she wasn’t talking to me over her now ex bf, then taking my idea for a holiday and going without me) and i was sure i was ok with it. It didn't bother me. If that is how you were going to be then fine. But i don’t know; now i actually feel upset about it. I think had the holiday been to somewhere different like maga or something i might not have minded but taking my total idea, that’s just low.
That's two holidays I’ve not been invited on, so surly that means the problem must lie with me.
But when people just turn against you and don’t talk to you about it how are you meant to make things write. Fix things. Change.
Ok so i know one reason that one person doesn’t like me. But i wasn't flirting with your now ex. You claim i was your best friend so surly you should know i wouldn’t do such a thing. I’ve done everything i can to prove that to you said all i could to fix it and still you have a problem with me. Is that really my fault?
Apparently so.
The guys. My real friends - seem to find the whole thing almost laughable, saying girls take things to seriously and are always falling out. Well i haven’t fallen out with anyone!
They think it’s funny to joke and say they are going to fall out with me for no reason just like everyone else. But that just stings and rubs in the fact that I'm now pretty much down to one proper female mate. She has her best friend though and spends all her time with her boyfriend, i know she would be there for me no matter what but she has other priorities.
Can't wait for a fresh start, at uni or even collage, or just working for a year. Anything to meet new people and get away from all this pointless drama.
That's two holidays I’ve not been invited on, so surly that means the problem must lie with me.
But when people just turn against you and don’t talk to you about it how are you meant to make things write. Fix things. Change.
Ok so i know one reason that one person doesn’t like me. But i wasn't flirting with your now ex. You claim i was your best friend so surly you should know i wouldn’t do such a thing. I’ve done everything i can to prove that to you said all i could to fix it and still you have a problem with me. Is that really my fault?
Apparently so.
The guys. My real friends - seem to find the whole thing almost laughable, saying girls take things to seriously and are always falling out. Well i haven’t fallen out with anyone!
They think it’s funny to joke and say they are going to fall out with me for no reason just like everyone else. But that just stings and rubs in the fact that I'm now pretty much down to one proper female mate. She has her best friend though and spends all her time with her boyfriend, i know she would be there for me no matter what but she has other priorities.
Can't wait for a fresh start, at uni or even collage, or just working for a year. Anything to meet new people and get away from all this pointless drama.
Thursday, 20 January 2011
Sis.....
My sister does my head in at times. Just can’t be bothered with her when she is being a moody annoying cow! Which is most of the time. But it’s always me that gets the blame, i took what she said the wrong way, i take her "jokes" to seriously, i let little daft things rub me up the wrong. It’s not my fault that she does my head in, is always insulting me, being dead opinionated on stuff she doesn’t know anything about, she never thinks she is wrong or out of order it’s always got to be my fault!
Just because everyone thinks she is little miss perfect, never done anything wrong in her whole life. I mean why should she be allowed to think she is better than anyone? Just because guys think she is hot. Looks mean nothing when you’re a horrible person love!!
God and she seems to think her boyfriend is the best thing ever, even though all she ever does is complain about him. He seems like a total waste of space like all the time and he clearly has no respect for her. And she has the cheek to sit and judge my boyfriend, who is always there when needed, is willing to pick me over his mates or the football, who is completely honest with me and most importantly and my mum agrees has complete and utter respect for me.
Rant over for now :)
Just because everyone thinks she is little miss perfect, never done anything wrong in her whole life. I mean why should she be allowed to think she is better than anyone? Just because guys think she is hot. Looks mean nothing when you’re a horrible person love!!
God and she seems to think her boyfriend is the best thing ever, even though all she ever does is complain about him. He seems like a total waste of space like all the time and he clearly has no respect for her. And she has the cheek to sit and judge my boyfriend, who is always there when needed, is willing to pick me over his mates or the football, who is completely honest with me and most importantly and my mum agrees has complete and utter respect for me.
Rant over for now :)
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